Anatomy of an Awakening
...or somethin' like that.
Awakening to what, you ask? Not that nebulous “spiritual” awakening term that is so commonly abused. It’s just my take on delving into Truth. See if you can relate to any of these stages below.
Just for the record, in case you think I’m a Debbie Downer, I used to be proudly nicknamed Pollyanna and was surprised when a friend told me it was considered derogatory in her world! I still think Pollyanna-ism is a great way to live on a personal level if you can swing it.
For better or worse, the truth about this life has reared its ugly head and seared indelibly into my awareness. Once you’ve seen the truth, there’s no going back. One can only go through and beyond, to greater truth that’s perhaps not so ouchy. Here we go.
“I am a lover of what is, not because I'm a spiritual person, but because it hurts when I argue with reality.“ —Byron Katie
Damn, there’s an awful lot of corruption and bullshit on this planet. I used to just ignore it but ever since 2020 it’s really been in-yer-face unignoreable.
Oh but, hey, look over there… now there’s a hopeful solution, a ray of light, a promising idea, a campaign or company or group or system or candidate who’s going to make it better.
Hold on…the corruption is much much much bigger than I’d imagined. Those promising solutions are not so promising. Upon closer examination, everything that’s really good and gets big enough to make a difference gets thwarted or co-opted in some way.
Of course, there is beauty and art and love on the planet too, but it certainly doesn’t come from the structures and systems that are set up. It comes from beautiful beings in spite of those corrupt systems and structures.
Actually…the corruption and control here is systematic and not anomalous (the opposite of what we’re taught to think). It’s top down, complete and consistent, now that I look at it accurately. It’s clear to me now that this planet is run by malevolent beings (whatever they may be) who are waging a war against humanity.
That’s a hard pill to swallow, right? But it probably has been this way for a very long time, probably forever (whatever that is), possibly by design.
Wow, this is utterly depressing. The only thing I can do now is focus on what’s beyond this realm. I’m going to finally read all those out-of-body experience (OBE) books that have been collecting dust on my bookshelf, and start practicing the techniques.
Holy shit, most of the OBE stuff is also corrupted, full of deception and manipulation! Turns out, the astral dimension is also part of this malevolently controlled simulation reality…or at least, the evil matrix has a large encampment “there.” Oh, and by the way, most of the woo-woo stuff I used to enjoy, such as channeled material and astrology, is also part of it!
Apparently, this entire elaborate reality is set up to mess with us and harvest our energy.
By now, I was wallowing in despair, with nothing left to cling to and no salient excuse for optimism.
Okay, my big plan now is simply to avoid the reincarnational cycle. I will NOT. Ever. Return. How to ensure this?
Huh. Well… what am I in actuality? What happens when the physical body dies? Some say we return to formless, boundless spirit. Some say there’s a reincarnational trap waiting to recycle us back into this battery farm. Some say we must train ourselves (in various ways) to be able to make the conscious choice to not get sucked back in.
I’m going to cover all these bases and do everything that might help. This is THE most important thing.
Non-dualism and ancient Gnosticism have some very intriguing insights, confirming my suspicions and filling in some missing puzzle pieces.
What if we, in our true identity as infinite awareness or consciousness, have been sort of tricked into playing humans in this realm and believing in it all, thereby keeping the matrix fueled… and what if we can step away from the machinery and reclaim our sovereignty? It involves bolstering our consious awareness, and ironically it hearkens back to being Pollyanna-ish…but with a new twist.